The other day I was cleaning out my notebook collection (which is shockingly extensive, considering I use a PC/tablet/phone for nearly everything). In checking the contents of each notebook before sorting it into the “keep” or “toss” pile, I was surprised to discover pages and pages of handwritten notes in one innocuous looking little notebook. It took me a moment to realize that this was the notebook I took on our cross-country drive from Colorado to Georgia in 2014 for Thanksgiving.*

The drive where Aurora Renegades and Aurora Resonant came to life.

November 2014 places this drive two months after Vertigo was released, which means I was heavy into writing Transcendence. I’d had the broad brush-strokes of the full 9-book saga in place from the very beginning (yes, including the ending!), but up until this point I’d forced myself to focus on Aurora Rising—because if Rising wasn’t a success, there would likely be no 2nd and 3rd trilogies. But by November, Starshine had taken off and Vertigo was doing very well; I was collecting an enthusiastic fan base, and I had started to accept the notion that this writing gig was something I could do. As in, forever.

So it was time to get serious about the rest of the story.

In reading back through my notes (when I could decipher them—my handwriting is chicken scratch in the best of circumstances, and these were written in a moving car), the biggest thing that struck me was how little changed from initial brainstorming to the released books. But talking about what stayed the same is BORING, so instead I’m going to talk about what changed, along with a few tangents inspired by this stroll down nostalgia lane.

Prevo Virus

One of the biggest changes, plot-wise, relates to the virus that Olivia’s Artificial unleashes on the Prevos in Relativity. Initially, rather than put the Prevo into a coma or kill them, the virus was going to alter their personality in pernicious ways (in this respect, not unlike the virutox in Exin Ex Machina). Mia would have been infected (among others), leading her down a dark and ultimately tragic path.

But Mia wasn’t interested in getting taken out a second time. She kept muttering something about ‘agency’ and ‘Hell, no,’ and eventually I had no choice but to listen to her. I’m glad I did, as it meant she was able to go on and play a crucial role in curing that very virus, as well as a wonderful role in the final two books.

Anaden Integrals

Another major change that was more subtle but also more far-reaching was the nature of the Anaden integrals. Initially, they were going to be much stronger and more invasive, bringing the Anaden Dynasties closer to either a hive mind or, more likely, a master/slave or queen/worker structure. But such a structure would have severely limited the possibilities for rebellion from within—and can you imagine Resonant without the anarchs? Without EREN?? Right.

Love At First Coma

When I wrote Transcendence, I never intended Mia and Malcolm to later become romantically involved. I mean, who would matchmake those two? I only threw them together in Transcendence because I thought they would clash, which is great for dramatic tension. I knew I was in trouble, though, from the moment they met in that bunker on Romane, when the sparks practically flew off the pages. And nearly set the pages on fire in their single meeting in Sidespace. Still, I resisted well into writing Dissonance. But some things are meant to be. Apparently. I continued to throw obstacle after obstacle at them right up until the end, all of which they batted away like pros.

We Interrupt This Regularly Scheduled....

An aside, since we’re talking about Mia: A lot of readers are commenting on how much Nika and Alex have in common. It’s true, they do share a number of characteristics, especially the hero-esque ones. But I would argue that, if you set aside Nika’s combat capabilities, the Rhapsody character she’s most like is Mia. … ... But that’s another blog post ;).

2nd aside, since now we’re talking about Nika: Nika and Eren are actually two divergent evolutions of a single character concept I had for the protagonist of a stand-alone novel. That hypothetical novel has been chopped up and many of its best ideas used in Asterion Noir, but I think it’s neat that the soul of the character who could've been lives on in two of my favorite characters. Also, I can’t promise that the novel’s concept won’t pop up as a short story one day.

Justice, Vengeance & The Squiggly Line In Between

The question of who was going to execute Jude Winslow in Abysm was up in the air for a long time. Many of the major characters face character-defining moments in Abysm, and this action definitely would have qualified. So who did the deed was important, and also complicated.

Why not Devon? Because his conversation with Jude (in which Devon consciously chooses not to kill Jude) showed far more powerful and compelling character growth than him taking revenge would have. Why not Alex? Because she'd already crashed into the bottom of the chasm, faced her moment of truth and turned away from the darkness, into the light. I did consider having Jude die in her strike on the OTS hideout, but that would have robbed his death of the impact it deserved.

Why not Mia? This was a little tougher, honestly. Her later arguments with Malcolm on the subject show that she recognized the need for his death. But as a public figure and leader now, she was also trying to live by society's rules, and to defy them with malice aforethought would feel to her like a slide back toward the past she'd escaped. Why not Malcolm? To have Malcolm kill Jude in cold blood would be a betrayal of his character, clearly. So, like with Alex, this would have of necessity changed the circumstances of Jude's death and thus minimized it.

Why Caleb, then? Because Caleb has always done the hard things, the dark things, that need doing. But I'll let him explain it:

“The system is only as good as its leaders. And when they fail—when the system fails—you better damn well hope I’m there to pick up the slack.”
Jenner continued to glower, but it lost some of its fervor. “No one appointed you humanity’s protector.”
“No one had to—and if you don’t understand why that is, then you’re not nearly the man I was told you are.”

Tidbits, Gems & Wadded Paper on the Floor

• An aquatic species initially slated to appear in Renegades eventually became the Galenai in Resonant.

• For the first several months, the Anadens were referred to as “Human Primes” in my notes and my head. I knew they’d need a proper name, of course, but in the early days it worked well as a short-hand that captured their nature rather well.

• And Aver ela-Praesidis, the Inquisitor who discovers the Aurora Enisle and bites the dust in a showdown with Caleb in Abysm, was referred to in our house as “Mirror Caleb,” complete with a metaphorical goatee. (For the non-Trekkies: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mirror_Universe)

• The Ruda were originally crystalline rather than metal, but the image of their world I had in my head was much more powerful when painted in hard metals instead of sparkly crystals.

• The Taenarins’ underground world was inspired in part by Below the Root, one of my husband’s favorite video games from his childhood, which is based on the Green Sky Trilogy books by Zilpha Keatley Snyder (who also co-wrote the video game).

• David Solovy initially came back wrong.

KIDDING!!! That resurrection was 8 books in the making, and I'll be damned if I was going to screw it up. My husband likes to say that my greatest trick in the series was having the main character be dead until the last book. I won't go quite that far, because Alex and Caleb's strength and heroism should never be discounted. But there's no question that David Solovy was the whisper between every line; the shadow in the negative space; the spirit giving Alex, Miriam and Richard the fortitude to push ahead when their worlds were darkest. And for all that, when he finally arrived, it turned out he was just a man. A damn good man.

• So about the chicken scratch. It's not just my writing - it's my drawing, too. THIS is why almost all my notes, outlines, flow charts, etc. are digital. Of course, my husband thinks my drawings are "cute." He tapes them to the refrigerator. (In fairness, we don't have kids, so something's got to go on it, right?) He's currently trying to tape the notebook that spurred this blog post to the fridge - the whole thing. I'm trying to intervene.

But, I have to admit, it was very cool randomly coming across this piece of written, physical Aurora Rhapsody history and being able to flip through the pages and smile. Then take pictures and share it with you all :).

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*PSA: Don't. Sure, the first 6 hours or so were fun - seeing the countryside, feet on the dash, creating far-off worlds and aliens and committing them to paper. But then there was another day and half of driving left. With two cranky dogs (and one non-cranky husband; he loved the whole journey). In subsequent years, it's been a pet sitter and airplanes all the way!